Listening

You're by yourself
Both Physically and mentally
But you're still listening

You listen to the music
that pulls at your heart strings
with each second it plays

You listen to your thoughts
as they present you with the
tools that could lead you
to complete and utter destruction
or to your self-worth which you've kept hidden
in the back of your mind

You listen as your tears flow
And your breathing elevates,
Gasping and desperate for air
You try to silence your sobs of distress and pain.

You listen as your captured and held,
nothing left but the suffocating hands of silence,
was it even worth it to struggle?

You wait and listen
As your eyes dry up and the flow of tears subside,
They evaporate,
Nothing left but puffy red eyes and its tracks down your face

You're out of tears
but the threatening pressure behind your eyes
Still there
It threatens to overflow again and still you listen

No matter what you do
You listen
You listen as you fall,
as you break and pull yourself back together
readying for it to happen all over again
Your alone, you hurt, you cry, picking up the pieces
then it repeats
but you still listen , always listening.